tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22581494698677281512024-03-13T06:02:57.858-04:00Lifetime Membership to the AbnormalWelcome to my little hole in the corner of the internet.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comBlogger190125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-91956674205061317782021-01-23T20:51:00.000-05:002021-01-23T20:51:54.272-05:00What an absolute cluster of a time it's been.Well hello there 2021. Been a little shit storm so far haven't you? This is not the calm I was promised, sir.
To help me get back on here on a more regular basis I'm going to answer a question each day and then write a little if I feel.
Here goes.
<b>Do you enjoy spending time with others?</b>
That depends on a lot of things. The number of people, my overall mood, and the actual people I'm spending time with.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-46324619805590326722019-06-17T09:46:00.002-04:002019-06-17T09:46:57.732-04:00Never did get my keyboard fixed..But I'm happy to report that my lovely boyfriend bought a laptop (HE BOUGHT A LAPTOP) for my apartment.<br />
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What! Who does that?<br />
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He said it's because he's tired of not being able to use my computer properly. I think he's just a mush.<br />
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Speaking of the laptop. The battery also went kaput. I don't exactly know what happened to it but I had to remove it from the thing. And now, of course, it has to be plugged in to use at all. That's been a real pain in the rear end.<br />
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As for Life. Bub and Miss are another year older, from my last update. And now almost another year again.<br />
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We're almost done the school year here. It gets old, but I cannot believe they're growing so fast. Grades 8 and 2 next year. Yikes O.o<br />
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I has le boyfriend. He's originally from Poland and is 6 foot 9. Nine! I'm 5'8". I feel very short when with him. He's a wonderful person and I'm very happy with him. September will be a year for us.<br />
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I fell into one of those Sims4 100 Baby Challenges (Chelsea ftw), and I've been playing a lot myself. I have 247 hours logged lol. Shameful, I know. But what else is there to do when you don't work (changing soon, hopefully).<br />
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Mental health has really struck me this year. It's been a very tenuous war with myself. And honestly, most of the time I'm losing. <br />
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Now that I have something I can actually type on. Which feels SO GOOD, by the way. I'm hoping to start writing again. I've missed using that part of my brain. I've missed sitting and immersing myself in a world I've made up or altered. I miss it all.<br />
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I want to start journal blogging with prompts, or something. I follow an Insta and they want to start some type of daily journal thing, so I might just post 'em there and here. I also want to see if I can commit to a photo prompt type of thing. I started one a few years ago and never finished it and it's always sort of irked me. Getting out of my apartment is difficult for me sometimes so maybe if I start one of those it'll be a little easier.<br />
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All for now. Happy Monday!AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-85793357772099643422018-07-26T13:57:00.002-04:002018-07-26T13:57:45.901-04:00Hello from my cell phone.I had this whole post planned out yesterday and have since forgotten what I was going to say.<br />
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Anyway. So my laptop's keyboard has been kind of kaput for a while. Two of the rows don't respond properly and it's a serious pain in the ass to type more than a few things at a time. I've barely used my computer in months. I think Miss uses it more than I do.<br />
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So that's why I haven't been updating as much lately. Although let's be real, I suck at that anyway lol. But I've missed coming on here and writing. I'm hoping to get the keyboard fixed up soon so I can finally, actually, use my damn computer.<br />
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After that happens I'll perhaps get a life update in haha.<br />
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Typing on my phone sucks.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-61933135090287661442018-02-25T11:24:00.001-05:002018-02-25T11:24:52.320-05:002016? Wow I really suck.I actually have no idea why I write these, but 2016 seems nuts to me. I didn't think it had been that long since I'd last updated this but here we are.<br />
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Life has been pretty hard for me. Chronic illness is not my friend and I've had to come to terms with that. Constant fatigue (exhaustion when it's bad), various pain that doesn't like to be ignored. I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis in September, but have been dealing with it for a year prior to that. Basically the endometrial lining is absorbed into the uterine muscle causing very painful periods. For me, it started only during my periods, then it would linger after, then come about early, and now it's every single day, all day. The pain can be managed through various methods but ultimately a hysterectomy is the only cure. That's where I'm headed.<br />
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My left knee has also been acting up lately. For a little over two years randomly when I walk it will kind of click inside my inner ear. No pattern to it, and as time went on it was more and more. About 6 months ago, maybe around the summer time, when I sat with my legs curled for too long my knee would be in a lot of discomfort. Weird way to type it, but yes. So I just wouldn't do that much. Then for about two months I'd get random sharp, shooting pains in my knee and down my leg at random times. And now, I wanna say for about two or three weeks, those pains have been almost every day.<br />
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I finally went to the doctor and got x-rays and ultrasound done. The x-ray results were fine and now I'm just waiting on the ultrasound. I'm at the point now 'do I want there to be something wrong so I can actually explain this pain, or do I want it to be okay and have no explanation'. I went through that a lot before I got the Adeno diagnosis. It felt good to have an explanation and a word to put to what I'd been going through for so long, but then it meant having to deal with a world I wasn't really ready for. I'm still pretty conflicted.<br />
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I broke a tooth last weekend and may need a root canal. Got a temporary fix on that baby until my insurance approves it.<br />
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BUT I'm <i>finally</i> over a cough that I had for literally 4 some months. Maybe even more, cause I don't remember anymore. It started in September and ended in/around December or Janaury. I don't even know. I do know that I had bronchitis and not pneumonia cause the x-rays said so. Then I dealt with some side effects of the antibiotics for a couple weeks after that.<br />
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We adopted a kitten in September and named her Mocha. She is very sweet, very playful and loves being pet but <b>do not</b> cuddle or pick her up. It's such a change from Butter because he LOVES cuddles and smushes and blankies and being carried around and everything. He's incredibly patient with Bub and his silliness whereas she isn't. She doesn't lash out and scratch but she doesn't stick around either. I'm very fortunately with these two. They're wonderful kitties and compliment the family well. They're both so silly and get along great. She's coming around really well and I love watching her accept us into her circle.<br />
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The kiddos are both doing fantastic.<br />
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Bub has lost TWO teeth. He's in SK and just got his graduation pictures done (cue ugly mom sobs). I've been working with the school about his issues and they're totally on board and supportive. We have an appointment with a pedi next month for a behavioral assessment. This will really open the door to a diagnosis for autism and so many supports for him everywhere else. I've already got a couple on the go right now but a lot of it is short term or temporary, at home or in centre/office based. He needs long term and at school help/support. Getting a diagnosis will help with that tremendously.<br />
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He's just as care free and inquisitive as ever. He wants to know everything as quick as his mind can form the question. He's so caring and so himself. Very hardheaded and steadfast and opinionated and makes sure you know exactly what's on his mind as soon as he does. Even if it's an hour after bed time to tell me that his (fake toy) tarantula spider is scared of the dark so he's going to let it sleep with him.<br />
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He <i>adores</i> tarantulas. He has about 6 or 7 fake ones living in a little colony on his dresser and a couple shirts with them on there. He loves shows with them (Eight Legged Freaks) and books. He's been begging me for almost a year to get one as a pet. As soon as I find a reputable breeder in my area I'll be gathering the moolah. "We can share it, mommy. It can stay in your room but we can share it." So sweet.<br />
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The gal is doing wonderfully. She is very much a young lady and it's kind of frightening sometimes. She's in grade 6 and still gets raving reviews from her teachers. They can't say enough good things about her during meetings. One said "If I could clone her and have 20 I would.". It makes me feel great to hear stuff like that, being a single mom and having raised her on my own. She's an amazing kid and most of that is because of me.<br />
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She went to Cuba with her aunt, uncle, grandma, and cousins for a week this month. She <b><i>loved</i></b> it there and had a great time. She didn't want to come home to the snow and the cold and I don't blame her one bit lol. She said she loved all of the food except for the international food. She isn't much for trying new things so that doesn't surprise me much. I'm really glad that her aunt offered for her to go with them on their vacation.<br />
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I had meant to get this out almost a week ago but as is my life, it happens lol.<br />
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Thanks for reading ;)AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-42908026828234367852018-02-20T00:06:00.002-05:002018-02-20T00:06:43.564-05:00This is technically the second one.I was in the middle of typing out a very long post when my laptop disconnected from my wireless. I had to c&p it into a text document, restart my computer, but before I'd done that I previewed the post on my phone to see how far I'd gotten before my Wi-Fi had cut out and it was only like half. So while I was waiting for my computer to update I was looking at my old posts and fell down my own rabbit hole (that sounds dirty) and now here I am almost 2 hours later and have still not completed the other post but I want to do a questionnaire (I don't know why) so here it is.<br />
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1. I don't think I can pick just <i>one</i> thing, honestly. I've been facing questionable shit since I was literally a baby. It's been an ongoing curve for me that I hope has stopped. Or at least slows down. Or something. <br />
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2. Being made to feel like a victim. Again and again. <i>Is it me? What am I doing to make this happen? Why do I keep choosing people that do this stuff to me?</i> and any number of other things that ran through my head before I learned it was never me. I was not the problem. The assholes are the problem. Always.<br />
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3. Most like myself. Man, I don't know. It's less of a place and more of just who I'm with. I can be in my own home, uncomfortable as you please, because of who's here. But then 10 minutes later I could be in a new place with my best friend and most like myself as ever.<br />
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4. My own head.<br />
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5. If he hadn't passed away 8 years ago, my grandpa. But being as life is, it's hard to say though and I'm not really sure why that is.<br />
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6. My health/body. I'm too young to be going through this shit and it annoys me. I resent it. I shouldn't have to deal with it. I should be healthy and enjoying my life. I should have the energy to play outside with my kids. I should not need a hysterectomy at 29 years old. If I could change anything it would be that I was just healthy.<br />
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7. I would do all of the drugs I never wanted to do normally.<br />
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lol No, not really. I'd spend it with everyone that is most important to me.<br />
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8. Decade? Like.. my own decade, 30s, 40s, 70s. Or the world's decade, '80, '50, '20. I honestly have no idea either way. I'm excited for my 30s. I'm hoping to be past a lot of this bullshit with my 20s. And I'd love to visit each decade to see them first hand but I wouldn't want to live in them. This one sucks but I'm content here.<br />
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9. Probably my mom? I don't know. I'm lame.<br />
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10. Ask me this a year ago first person would have been Ang. But due to circumstances far outside both our control life has gotten in the way for both of us. We don't talk as much as I miss her immensely. I realize that isn't the question.<br />
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Right now I'd say Jess? She knows things.<br />
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11. Oh I just read the best description of Ang in one of my old posts. Can I refer to that one? lol<br />
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She's just the most amazing person I've ever met. And I haven't even <i>met</i> her. We've been friends for 7 years and she is still my bestbestbestbest friend.<br />
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12. Gawsh, everything. Nothing was too farfetched for me.<br />
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13. Wow, I have no idea. I love to learn and I love knowledge. I'm witty and funny. I love books and read a lot. I like rules and I like to follow them. Though, sometimes they're strictly my own self imposed rules. I have a lot of faults. I'm stubborn and annoying and weird (good and bad) and can't always make up my mind. When I believe I'm right about something it's very hard to shake my stance on that. I will admit a no but it never comes easily. I cry when I'm angry.<br />
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If that makes any character jump to mind, let me know!<br />
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14. I have a love/hate with them. It's only been the past year or two that I've taken them at face value.<br />
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"I like your hat/hair/nails/pants/shoes/shirt/etc."<br />
"Thank you." Maaaaaaaaaaybe a small explanation, if it's something new or if the dress has POCKETS or I just coloured my hair or something to that effect. Or nothing if I'm just passing that person on the street. They simply get a smile and a thank you.<br />
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Before, being little in the self esteem category, I would delve too deep into the compliment and explain why I don't deserve it.<br />
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"Your nails are very nice."<br />
"Oh, thanks, I completely messed up and had to redo this hand twice before I liked how it came out." (This actually happened once)<br />
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The higher I feel about myself the easier this becomes and even the freer I am about giving them out myself. It feels great to make people feel good about themselves.<br />
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15. I mean, both? Or one of each, rather. Is that allowed?AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-31349403742769389182016-10-25T14:57:00.002-04:002016-10-25T14:57:34.273-04:00Suprise!I have 10 minutes until I get Bub from the bus so I thought I'd answer some questions.<br />
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55. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?<br />
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I think a lot of that has to do with how our society is built. We work to live and live to work. You can't do much of worth without money. Even volunteering your time and energies requires money from somewhere, because no one can live off volunteer work. Bills need to be paid and food needs to be bought.<br />
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56. What lifts your spirits when life gets you down?<br />
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Some good music, a movie I've watched a million times, a hot cup of tea, a good book. Sometimes, although it's rare, people can lift me up.<br />
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57. Have you ever regretted something you did not say or do?<br />
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I try to live without regrets. I don't want to be 80 and wishing I'd told that boy I liked him, or wish I'd gone on that roller coaster, or eaten that extra slice of cake. As mediocre as my life can sometimes be, at least I'm living it to what I want and not how I wish I was. Wait, does that make sense?<br />
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58. Has your greatest fear ever come true?<br />
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Almost. I live on the second floor of an apartment building. On my patio I had a bench sitting against the railing. At this time, my son was 2 and wasn't able to climb the railing, so I didn't think anything of it. That was, until I was sitting on the bench and he used my leg to hoist himself over the edge of the railing.<br />
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If he'd done it quicker, or I had noticed a half second later, or any type of "if", he would have fallen over. It isn't something I like to contemplate because he did not fall over and now he's 4 and my little love.<br />
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59. Why do we think of others the most when they’re gone?<br />
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I think people tend to take others for granted. I know I've been guilty of this. When the person is there, they're there, and you don't have to really think about them. When they're not there, you notice. Maybe it's not necessarily taking someone for granted either, but who really knows. I don't know what I'm saying anymore, lol.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-2050782599726004632016-10-21T22:20:00.002-04:002016-10-21T22:20:44.592-04:00Well, the numbers don't lie.My grandma passed away on October 11. She was 89 years old.<br />
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I've been taking it very hard. I'm still actively grieving almost 7 years later from my grandpa, and I think my grief has seemed to compound on itself. The funeral gave me a lot of closure so since Tuesday I've been doing okay. Better, anyway.<br />
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I was right though.<br />
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'04 July x2<br />
'06 November x1<br />
'08 September x1<br />
'10 February x1<br />
'12 September x1<br />
'14 August x2<br />
'16 October x1<br />
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I'm literally terrified of what 2018 is going to bring. Like, who is going to die next?<br />
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I have half a mind to think I'll deliver surro babe in 2018 and skip next year completely.<br />
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I don't know.<br />
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In other news.. the kids have adjusted well to school. Bub was having a pretty difficult time. He needs more one-on-one time than the "average" kid, so it was hard for him to go from the daycare, with a class of maaaaybe 20 at any given time, to 25 to 30 kids every single day. Plus he started riding the bus to school. HUGE adjustment there.<br />
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The 3rd week, I think, the kindy classes were divided into 3 from 2. The 3rd class has maximum 15 kids and Bub was put into it. It made all the difference. We also had an IEP done up for him. Basically it explains where he needs help, how he needs help, if he's being difficult what to do in those situations (he has a tendency to run away when he doesn't want to do something). <br />
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The meeting was very hard for me. Miss has always been such an easy kid, with transitions and school and schedules and health, etc etc. Her school reports are always glowing. She's quite lovely. With Bub, I've dealt with much more concerning him. His life has been a roller coaster of emotions and strength.<br />
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In the past week or so, Bub has made leaps with getting on the bus. The first day, after he realized I was not getting on with him, he FREAKED. For a solid month I had to physically force him onto the bus. Meanwhile he's screaming, crying, trying to kick me, and overall just not having it.<br />
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I moved his bus stop and I think that had a big impact. I think, however, the smaller class has just made all the difference in the world. I don't get reports home about him, his bus reports have been perfect, and he's happy to go to school in the morning. Makes me really happy.<br />
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I've done and got myself a gym membership and a personal trainer. I figured it was finally time to put my health as a priority and start fixing myself. I've been going for a month now and it's been fantastic. I'm so happy I made this decision.<br />
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My trainer and I mesh really well and I'm super glad he was assigned to me, lol. I don't know if I would have worked as well with anyone else.<br />
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Even after only one month I'm already seeing changes. Weight loss, for one. Not much, maybe 10 lbs, but it's a loss in any case. My treadmill stamina is much better. And believe it or not, I think I actually have muscles!<br />
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I know! I could hardly believe it myself.<br />
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I'm excited to find out what my body can do and what I can accomplish.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-25863959994818718392016-09-03T16:07:00.000-04:002016-09-03T16:07:03.449-04:00We meet again.I suck, that's not new lol.<br />
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Kids start school on Tuesday. Miss is very excited. She's made countless lists for the whole thing. Things to buy, what to do the morning of, what steps to take to get ready. She's been driving me batty. Bub doesn't care lol. It's still a foreign concept to him. It'll be real on Wednesday for his first full day. The JK's only go for half an hour on the first day, to meet the teacher and their other classmates.<br />
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He also turns the big FOUR tomorrow. Man, it's weird. At this point 4 years ago I was bored out of my mind sitting in a hospital bed, being monitored for pre-e. Collecting my pee in a jug, haha. He was early but you'd never know it now!<br />
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Not sure what we're doing yet tomorrow. Going to try to go somewhere fun. Today is a suuuper lazy day. We've been cuddling and watching Netflix.<br />
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I'm no longer engaged. I had a sort of epiphany and left him. I figure no one should go into a marriage not caring if they'll get divorced. I gave the marriage a year or two and divorced before I'm 30. Not even wanting to get married in the first place, there was no point. I'm happier than I've been in a long while.<br />
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I've got this weird streak going on. Since 2004, every two years, a birth or a death (one important to me) has happened. Literally, two years. Not much of 2016 is left so I'm wondering just when it's going to happen. Obviously a death because I'm not pregnant. My grandma's health is deteriorating quickly so I've been waiting for that phone call for months.<br />
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If it doesn't happen this year, I don't know. Honestly I'd expect her to hold on until 2018, but then nothing would have happened this year. I don't know, lol.<br />
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Also, 2004 and 2014 there were two deaths within days of each other. The first, two friends died in July. The second, my cat and grandpa dies 4 days apart. It's very weird.<br />
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Now that Bub's going to be in school I'll be looking for a full time job. Right now, pretty much whatever I can find. I need to get my dumbass in gear and get a resume written. The structure is there, just need to tweak it. Blarg. I'm hoping to be employed before the end of the month.<br />
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We finally found some info on Douchecanoe. An address from last year that may be outdated. I'd like to drive by and see if his car is there. But, what if he lives there and just isn't home, or got a new car? Finding someone is super annoying. I don't know how PI's do it.<br />
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Life goes on as usual.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-70538900476561475902016-06-20T21:52:00.004-04:002016-06-20T21:53:15.123-04:00That didn't last long.It's amazing how busy one can be when they don't work every day.<br />
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My life. I'm still not working but my days fill up so quickly. Some I leave to just do nothing, but more often than not I've got something going on.<br />
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I got braces about 4 months ago and today I got new wires, bumpers, a power cable and elastics. My mouth feels full and is so very sore.<br />
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It's almost the end of the school year for my 9 year old. Her last day is next Wednesday. The boy will stay in day care until he starts JK, because of his language issues. He needs the routine, interaction and consistency.<br />
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Summer is filling right up with activities. Ma'am is going to 3 separate day camps this summer. Two of them are in July. We're going to try to go to the beach and hopefully fishing once or twice. And she'll probably do a bunch of fun things with her dad as well.<br />
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I've already gotten my first burn of the season, and it was a good one. Bubbles and peeling skin all over my chest, shoulders and upper back. Delicious.<br />
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Oh I'm getting married! Huge surprise, actually. I was very undecided on the topic and honestly still kind of am. It's more important to J than it is to me. He's been married once and never planned to do it again, so it's a big thing for him to want to take that step. I can do that for him.<br />
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We're having a JP ceremony this summer and then a big reception next Spring. With where my life is going right now it makes more sense to do it this way. And we're both happy with it.<br />
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Still working on the court stuff. The main issue is that no one can find him, which makes taking him to court a tad difficult. J did spot him a few weeks ago randomly so I know he hasn't left the city. It's just a matter of tracking him down now.<br />
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My cats, actually one or both, impregnated a female a couple months ago and she had the kittens last month. I've decided to keep one and I'm calling him/her Fritter. Cutest little thing. I'm hoping for a girl kitty.<br />
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Until next time.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-82635454218092190902016-01-08T22:27:00.000-05:002016-01-08T22:27:13.406-05:00Questions!Bored tonight so thought I'd answer a bunch of questions.<br />
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Have you ever made out in a bathroom? My own.<br />
Do you think the last person you kissed is nice? Eeehh.. he can be.<br />
Who was the last person to call you? My child support worker.<br />
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? Water.<br />
When is the last time you cried? Probably within the week.<br />
Are you scared of spiders? Yhup.<br />
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Depends on where I'm going.<br />
What are your plans for this weekend? Going to shop with the toddler. Maybe take him to a movie.<br />
Ever been swimming in a lake or river? Sure have.<br />
Last person you drove with in a car? My muh-zah.<br />
What did you last buy? Chinese food.<br />
What’s irritating you right now? I have a pain in my left shoulder blade.<br />
What radio stations do you listen to? 105.3<br />
Are you afraid of the dark? Nope.<br />
Are you listening to music right now? Nope, watching Friends on Netflix.<br />
Do you like Chinese food? I answered that a few questions ago.<br />
What is the last movie you saw in theaters? Took the smidgets to see The Good Dinosaur. Loved it.<br />
Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Yeah. A couple friends from grade school that I lost touch with. I'd love to see how they're doing now.<br />
Do you get distracted easily? Nop- was that a bird?<br />
First time you kissed the last person you kissed? My 25th birthday.<br />
Was this the best year of your life? Definitely not.<br />
Who are your best friends? Angela.<br />
What was going through your mind during your last kiss? Last kiss? I don't know lol.<br />
Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgiving takes a lot of maturity and sense of self, especially if they're not sorry. Forgetting can give you peace but can be really hard.<br />
Are you jealous of someone? I don't like to admit it, but yes.<br />
What last made you laugh the hardest? Gawd I don't know. Probably one of the kids.<br />
Do you flirt a lot? I don't think so.<br />
Would you live with someone without marrying them? Sure. I'm still undecided about marriage.<br />
Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? Yep.<br />
Who was the last person you cried in front of? I have no idea.<br />
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yep. And while pregnant, too. Not the easiest.<br />
Who was the last person that made you feel safe, why? I'm not sure.<br />
Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes.<br />
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Unfortunately, probably.<br />
Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I can be. I can also be hard to handle.<br />
What did you do yesterday? It was Thursday. Hung out with the girl during the day and then went to the doctor's in the evening.<br />
Have you ever dated someone older than you? A few people.<br />
What time did you go to bed at and when did you awake? I went to bed around 11. I awoke about 8:30. We slept in.<br />
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? That's a hard one. Most people, yes. Some, no.<br />
Believe in love at first sight? No.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-91135589905993844292016-01-04T21:08:00.000-05:002016-01-04T21:08:41.830-05:00Drum roll, please.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwW6Vly8POcCdkP3qgq7ZmlWznn61YD6NopVb6siEL0uFAYx4UI993n-NAlq_racmJHaSqvbvqMPQQfogknSKSQJUcIAO_2utPDQowL4e1XuIFyb0oiGq4_R2QJ0631of5i-KzfAr60G_0/s1600/tumblr_nfuz0ts2zt1ql5p46o1_1280.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwW6Vly8POcCdkP3qgq7ZmlWznn61YD6NopVb6siEL0uFAYx4UI993n-NAlq_racmJHaSqvbvqMPQQfogknSKSQJUcIAO_2utPDQowL4e1XuIFyb0oiGq4_R2QJ0631of5i-KzfAr60G_0/s320/tumblr_nfuz0ts2zt1ql5p46o1_1280.jpg" /></a></div><br />
It's my birthday today! I'm now 13 years away from being 40, haha.<br />
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Nothing special today. Watched Friends online and went to my mom's for supper and cake. Best part of the day was the cake.<br />
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Have a wonderful one, lovelies.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-92073814297697774102015-12-30T01:07:00.000-05:002015-12-30T01:07:16.820-05:00Well hi there.No excuses. I suck. It's been a very busy, very stressful year.<br />
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I have a 9 year old and a 3 year old. I'm going to be 27 in 5 days. Not much planned for my birthday, although I have a tentative date in the works.<br />
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I finished my carpentry program in April and passed everything no problem. I got my official confirmation a few weeks ago that I'm a level one apprentice. I worked for a month after that and because of the boss I had, I hated it. He made working for him very hard. Hopefully the next time I venture into the trades I find a boss that's a little more accommodating.<br />
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From September to just a couple weeks ago I was in a masonry program. I learned a hell of a lot and really enjoyed it. I write the level one exemption next month. Fingers crossed I do well.<br />
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Christmas was pretty low key. Ma'am spent some time with her dad and Bub is currently with his Nana. Back to school/daycare for them come Monday and back to job searching for me.<br />
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Not sure what my immediate future holds. I have some court issues I need to deal with and I'm really hoping everything goes smoothly. It hasn't thus far, so it can only go up, right?<br />
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A couple months ago I stumbled across a YouTube channel that does poetry slams (I believe they're called). I wrote a bunch of pieces and posted them to the writing section of my blog. It's been very therapeutic, surprisingly. I wouldn't say it's helped me figure anything out, but it's easier to admit these things and say them somewhere other than my own head.<br />
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Oh, I adopted two cats. They're brothers from the same litter. Peanut Butter and Jelly. I named them. PB has been nicknamed Garfield because he's so fat (he's orange but he's missing the dark stripes). Both are serious cuddle bugs and love attention. Both are also jerks and cause havoc around the apartment. Jelly is a vulture and will eat anything. He also tips over the water bowl (often enough that it sits in the tub). PB is very vocal and gets into everything. I love them both.<br />
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I might start a weekly question thing on the 1st, to keep the blog active. I'm in the writing section so I figure why not.<br />
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But it's 1 AM and I need to be up early. Goodnight!AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-45191499234264769832014-12-26T23:18:00.000-05:002014-12-26T23:18:24.200-05:00*shrugs*Well, I did mean to write here more, but what can I say. I'm a single mom with an 8 year old and a two year old. I was in AU and am now in a pre-apprenticeship program for carpentry. Those two things take up most of my time right there. Add in all of my other goings-on and I'm one busy person.<br />
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I am going to try to get on here regularly though. Thinking about starting another page for my academic stuff. I build things. It's all very interesting.<br />
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I'm actually learning a hell of a lot and am really enjoying the program. I don't know what I'm going to do with it once I'm done, but my options are pretty endless.<br />
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Once I pass the exemption test, I will have learned everything a Level 1 carpentry apprentice should know. I guess basically I have two main options. Work or go back to school.<br />
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I'm inclined to think I'll work, but depending on what I learn this coming semester, we'll see.<br />
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In second semester we spend some hours learning the basics of the other trades (plumbing, electrical, masonry, HVAC) and I am just itching to get into the masonry building. I have absolutely no interest in the others, so spending that time is going to suck. But, it will be good to know at least the basics.<br />
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I do know that I am not going to be a roofer. Shingles and I don't get along at all. And I have the marks to prove it.<br />
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In April we do a 10 week work placement. I can work basically anywhere, as long as it has something to do with carpentry. I've heard that some people have worked at Home Depot.<br />
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My ex works at a place that cuts and finishes wood (for chairs, tables, etc). He's put a good word in with his boss, so I'm hoping I'll be able to do my placement there. I don't think I'd mind sanding wood for 10 weeks.<br />
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Christmas went well. This was the first year Miss was with her dad for Eve and Morning, so it was pretty quiet here Wednesday night. We did our gifts at home this morning then had a family dinner. Tomorrow we do a lunch with my other side. And then both kids go to Bub's grandma's house for a few days. Which means I'm going to be all alone. For days, even.<br />
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I don't know what the hell I'm going to do.<br />
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And then in 9 days I will be 26 years old. I'm not excited, per se, but I'm not freaking out anymore about getting older.<br />
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It's getting on 11:30 so that's all for tonight. Merry Christmas everyone!AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-32282851042389702082014-05-03T20:53:00.002-04:002014-05-06T21:07:53.627-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 54.54. In the haste of your daily life, what are you not seeing?<br />
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I think, how smart and wonderful my daughter is. I forget too often. I need to stop picking the little things and start seeing the bigger picture.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-36797092318756397212014-05-03T20:52:00.000-04:002014-05-03T20:52:19.932-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 53.53. What is the most defining moment of your life thus far?<br />
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I don't know if I can answer that one. There have been quite a few moments in my life where things could have happened and gone so much differently.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-17055648000107419152014-05-03T20:49:00.001-04:002014-05-03T20:49:53.355-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 52.52. What impact do you want to leave on the world?<br />
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I want my kids and grandkids to remember me as a good person. A person that helps others, that does good things, that has something nice to say to and about others. I want them to look up to me.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-62053564564591510432014-05-03T20:48:00.000-04:002014-05-03T20:48:07.005-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 51.51. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?<br />
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Fear of judgement or consequences? Could be a number of things. Depends on the mistake I think.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-52375843024306163992014-05-03T20:46:00.004-04:002014-05-03T20:46:52.432-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 50.50. Can you describe your life in a six word sentence?<br />
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I thought life was coming together.<br />
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Not so much anymore.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-2594211769154778572014-04-25T12:55:00.000-04:002014-04-25T12:55:18.420-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 49.49. Where do you find inspiration?<br />
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Anywhere really. Life experiences, certain situations, t.v, books, radio, movies. Everywhere.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-25370231298935622822014-04-25T12:54:00.004-04:002014-04-25T12:54:35.287-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 48.48. What is the one thing you would most like to change about the world?<br />
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Prejudice. It's terrible and makes people hate others for no reason.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-85488079611900063512014-04-25T12:53:00.001-04:002014-04-25T12:53:28.113-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 47.47. What has life taught you recently?<br />
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That's a hard one to put into words.<br />
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Even though your loved ones say they respect your decisions, they may not actually do so.<br />
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Closest I can get.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-23801118823670762612014-04-25T12:50:00.005-04:002014-04-25T12:50:58.273-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 46.46. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?<br />
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I'd say both, tied together. I worry about doing the right things, the right way.AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-1710586691162524082014-04-25T12:49:00.004-04:002014-04-25T12:49:52.122-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 4545. What do you want most?<br />
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To be happy in all aspects of my life. AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-53792860175535908622014-04-21T11:37:00.001-04:002014-04-21T11:37:02.540-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 44.44. Is stealing to feed a starving child wrong?<br />
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No, I don't think so. AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2258149469867728151.post-3671007378528019852014-04-21T11:36:00.000-04:002014-04-21T11:36:10.268-04:00365 Day Challenge; day 43.43. What are you most grateful for?<br />
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My life. AutoCensoredhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13540525239986462794noreply@blogger.com