03 September 2016

We meet again.

I suck, that's not new lol.

Kids start school on Tuesday. Miss is very excited. She's made countless lists for the whole thing. Things to buy, what to do the morning of, what steps to take to get ready. She's been driving me batty. Bub doesn't care lol. It's still a foreign concept to him. It'll be real on Wednesday for his first full day. The JK's only go for half an hour on the first day, to meet the teacher and their other classmates.

He also turns the big FOUR tomorrow. Man, it's weird. At this point 4 years ago I was bored out of my mind sitting in a hospital bed, being monitored for pre-e. Collecting my pee in a jug, haha. He was early but you'd never know it now!

Not sure what we're doing yet tomorrow. Going to try to go somewhere fun. Today is a suuuper lazy day. We've been cuddling and watching Netflix.

I'm no longer engaged. I had a sort of epiphany and left him. I figure no one should go into a marriage not caring if they'll get divorced. I gave the marriage a year or two and divorced before I'm 30. Not even wanting to get married in the first place, there was no point. I'm happier than I've been in a long while.

I've got this weird streak going on. Since 2004, every two years, a birth or a death (one important to me) has happened. Literally, two years. Not much of 2016 is left so I'm wondering just when it's going to happen. Obviously a death because I'm not pregnant. My grandma's health is deteriorating quickly so I've been waiting for that phone call for months.

If it doesn't happen this year, I don't know. Honestly I'd expect her to hold on until 2018, but then nothing would have happened this year. I don't know, lol.

Also, 2004 and 2014 there were two deaths within days of each other. The first, two friends died in July. The second, my cat and grandpa dies 4 days apart. It's very weird.

Now that Bub's going to be in school I'll be looking for a full time job. Right now, pretty much whatever I can find. I need to get my dumbass in gear and get a resume written. The structure is there, just need to tweak it. Blarg. I'm hoping to be employed before the end of the month.

We finally found some info on Douchecanoe. An address from last year that may be outdated. I'd like to drive by and see if his car is there. But, what if he lives there and just isn't home, or got a new car? Finding someone is super annoying. I don't know how PI's do it.

Life goes on as usual.

20 June 2016

That didn't last long.

It's amazing how busy one can be when they don't work every day.

My life. I'm still not working but my days fill up so quickly. Some I leave to just do nothing, but more often than not I've got something going on.

I got braces about 4 months ago and today I got new wires, bumpers, a power cable and elastics. My mouth feels full and is so very sore.

It's almost the end of the school year for my 9 year old. Her last day is next Wednesday. The boy will stay in day care until he starts JK, because of his language issues. He needs the routine, interaction and consistency.

Summer is filling right up with activities. Ma'am is going to 3 separate day camps this summer. Two of them are in July. We're going to try to go to the beach and hopefully fishing once or twice. And she'll probably do a bunch of fun things with her dad as well.

I've already gotten my first burn of the season, and it was a good one. Bubbles and peeling skin all over my chest, shoulders and upper back. Delicious.

Oh I'm getting married! Huge surprise, actually. I was very undecided on the topic and honestly still kind of am. It's more important to J than it is to me. He's been married once and never planned to do it again, so it's a big thing for him to want to take that step. I can do that for him.

We're having a JP ceremony this summer and then a big reception next Spring. With where my life is going right now it makes more sense to do it this way. And we're both happy with it.

Still working on the court stuff. The main issue is that no one can find him, which makes taking him to court a tad difficult. J did spot him a few weeks ago randomly so I know he hasn't left the city. It's just a matter of tracking him down now.

My cats, actually one or both, impregnated a female a couple months ago and she had the kittens last month. I've decided to keep one and I'm calling him/her Fritter. Cutest little thing. I'm hoping for a girl kitty.

Until next time.

08 January 2016


Bored tonight so thought I'd answer a bunch of questions.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom? My own.
Do you think the last person you kissed is nice? Eeehh.. he can be.
Who was the last person to call you? My child support worker.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? Water.
When is the last time you cried? Probably within the week.
Are you scared of spiders? Yhup.
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Depends on where I'm going.
What are your plans for this weekend? Going to shop with the toddler. Maybe take him to a movie.
Ever been swimming in a lake or river? Sure have.
Last person you drove with in a car? My muh-zah.
What did you last buy? Chinese food.
What’s irritating you right now? I have a pain in my left shoulder blade.
What radio stations do you listen to? 105.3
Are you afraid of the dark? Nope.
Are you listening to music right now? Nope, watching Friends on Netflix.
Do you like Chinese food? I answered that a few questions ago.
What is the last movie you saw in theaters? Took the smidgets to see The Good Dinosaur. Loved it.
Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Yeah. A couple friends from grade school that I lost touch with. I'd love to see how they're doing now.
Do you get distracted easily? Nop- was that a bird?
First time you kissed the last person you kissed? My 25th birthday.
Was this the best year of your life? Definitely not.
Who are your best friends? Angela.
What was going through your mind during your last kiss? Last kiss? I don't know lol.
Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgiving takes a lot of maturity and sense of self, especially if they're not sorry. Forgetting can give you peace but can be really hard.
Are you jealous of someone? I don't like to admit it, but yes.
What last made you laugh the hardest? Gawd I don't know. Probably one of the kids.
Do you flirt a lot? I don't think so.
Would you live with someone without marrying them? Sure. I'm still undecided about marriage.
Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying? Yep.
Who was the last person you cried in front of? I have no idea.
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yep. And while pregnant, too. Not the easiest.
Who was the last person that made you feel safe, why? I'm not sure.
Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Yes.
Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Unfortunately, probably.
Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I can be. I can also be hard to handle.
What did you do yesterday? It was Thursday. Hung out with the girl during the day and then went to the doctor's in the evening.
Have you ever dated someone older than you? A few people.
What time did you go to bed at and when did you awake? I went to bed around 11. I awoke about 8:30. We slept in.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? That's a hard one. Most people, yes. Some, no.
Believe in love at first sight? No.

04 January 2016

Drum roll, please.

It's my birthday today! I'm now 13 years away from being 40, haha.

Nothing special today. Watched Friends online and went to my mom's for supper and cake. Best part of the day was the cake.

Have a wonderful one, lovelies.

30 December 2015

Well hi there.

No excuses. I suck. It's been a very busy, very stressful year.

I have a 9 year old and a 3 year old. I'm going to be 27 in 5 days. Not much planned for my birthday, although I have a tentative date in the works.

I finished my carpentry program in April and passed everything no problem. I got my official confirmation a few weeks ago that I'm a level one apprentice. I worked for a month after that and because of the boss I had, I hated it. He made working for him very hard. Hopefully the next time I venture into the trades I find a boss that's a little more accommodating.

From September to just a couple weeks ago I was in a masonry program. I learned a hell of a lot and really enjoyed it. I write the level one exemption next month. Fingers crossed I do well.

Christmas was pretty low key. Ma'am spent some time with her dad and Bub is currently with his Nana. Back to school/daycare for them come Monday and back to job searching for me.

Not sure what my immediate future holds. I have some court issues I need to deal with and I'm really hoping everything goes smoothly. It hasn't thus far, so it can only go up, right?

A couple months ago I stumbled across a YouTube channel that does poetry slams (I believe they're called). I wrote a bunch of pieces and posted them to the writing section of my blog. It's been very therapeutic, surprisingly. I wouldn't say it's helped me figure anything out, but it's easier to admit these things and say them somewhere other than my own head.

Oh, I adopted two cats. They're brothers from the same litter. Peanut Butter and Jelly. I named them. PB has been nicknamed Garfield because he's so fat (he's orange but he's missing the dark stripes). Both are serious cuddle bugs and love attention. Both are also jerks and cause havoc around the apartment. Jelly is a vulture and will eat anything. He also tips over the water bowl (often enough that it sits in the tub). PB is very vocal and gets into everything. I love them both.

I might start a weekly question thing on the 1st, to keep the blog active. I'm in the writing section so I figure why not.

But it's 1 AM and I need to be up early. Goodnight!