My grandma passed away on October 11. She was 89 years old.
I've been taking it very hard. I'm still actively grieving almost 7 years later from my grandpa, and I think my grief has seemed to compound on itself. The funeral gave me a lot of closure so since Tuesday I've been doing okay. Better, anyway.
I was right though.
'04 July x2
'06 November x1
'08 September x1
'10 February x1
'12 September x1
'14 August x2
'16 October x1
I'm literally terrified of what 2018 is going to bring. Like, who is going to die next?
I have half a mind to think I'll deliver surro babe in 2018 and skip next year completely.
I don't know.
In other news.. the kids have adjusted well to school. Bub was having a pretty difficult time. He needs more one-on-one time than the "average" kid, so it was hard for him to go from the daycare, with a class of maaaaybe 20 at any given time, to 25 to 30 kids every single day. Plus he started riding the bus to school. HUGE adjustment there.
The 3rd week, I think, the kindy classes were divided into 3 from 2. The 3rd class has maximum 15 kids and Bub was put into it. It made all the difference. We also had an IEP done up for him. Basically it explains where he needs help, how he needs help, if he's being difficult what to do in those situations (he has a tendency to run away when he doesn't want to do something).
The meeting was very hard for me. Miss has always been such an easy kid, with transitions and school and schedules and health, etc etc. Her school reports are always glowing. She's quite lovely. With Bub, I've dealt with much more concerning him. His life has been a roller coaster of emotions and strength.
In the past week or so, Bub has made leaps with getting on the bus. The first day, after he realized I was not getting on with him, he FREAKED. For a solid month I had to physically force him onto the bus. Meanwhile he's screaming, crying, trying to kick me, and overall just not having it.
I moved his bus stop and I think that had a big impact. I think, however, the smaller class has just made all the difference in the world. I don't get reports home about him, his bus reports have been perfect, and he's happy to go to school in the morning. Makes me really happy.
I've done and got myself a gym membership and a personal trainer. I figured it was finally time to put my health as a priority and start fixing myself. I've been going for a month now and it's been fantastic. I'm so happy I made this decision.
My trainer and I mesh really well and I'm super glad he was assigned to me, lol. I don't know if I would have worked as well with anyone else.
Even after only one month I'm already seeing changes. Weight loss, for one. Not much, maybe 10 lbs, but it's a loss in any case. My treadmill stamina is much better. And believe it or not, I think I actually have muscles!
I know! I could hardly believe it myself.
I'm excited to find out what my body can do and what I can accomplish.