Holiday Questionnaire, round 5.

29. My most embarrassing moment.

What makes this list think I'd spread that around the internet lol.

Not the most embarrassing, but pretty up there; I was in grade school, maybe grade 4, when my mom still bought my clothes. I was playing sand tag at school and was sitting on a swing. A girl sat on my lap to avoid the "catcher" and I fell backwards. I happened to be wearing those pants with the elastic band that goes under your foot and in your shoes. I fell, but my pants didn't. I don't know how many people saw my undies, but surprisingly no one said anything to me.

30. Two of my insecurities.

Again, why would I tell you lol.

I suppose one would be my weight/body. After having spawns, it's not where I'd like it to be. And that's all you get.

31. What I would do if I won the lottery.

That would depend on how much I won. I would buy myself a car and move into a house. Pay whatever debt I have and get my credit up. If it was an entirely large sum of money I would start building my dream house. I'd take myself, the kids, a few family members and friends on a vacation somewhere.

32. A description of the boy I like.

Which one.

Just kidding lol. Uhm, he's tall. 6 foot 1 I think he said. Tall enough that I have to stand on tip toes to hug him, which I love. He's smart, funny, good looking, nice, blah blah. He has tattoos. Doesn't mind that I have a multitude of piercings. Has a kid that he loves and spends time with. He's good with Bub, and although he hasn't met Ma'am yet I bet he'd be good with her as well.

33. What I love most about myself.

I would say that I like who I've become considering all of the shit I've had to go through to get here. I could have turned out pretty bad, but I bucked up and made it through.

34. My biggest pet peeves.

Oh, Lord. There are so many.

When people put the toilet paper the wrong way.
When people complain and bitch about someone doing/saying something when meanwhile they do the exact same thing.
When people have no problems accepting help/gifts/advice/whatever but when asked for the same thing they can't be arsed unless it benefits them.
When people make plans (ESPECIALLY when it involves my kids) and then cancel last minute or don't cancel at all and just don't show up.
When people don't rinse their dishes before putting them in the sink.

I'll stop there before I actually start getting angry lol.

And I don't know if those were pet peeves per se, or more like things I just find annoying. Oh well.

35. What bands I've seen live.

Short answer; none.

I'd like to see Linkin Park and Hedley.

Holiday Questionnaire, round 4.

22. The meanest thing anyone has every said to me.

Shit. I don't know. I guess that might depend on things that are meant to be mean, things that are meant to be helpful but the intent is mean, and things that aren't meant to be mean but end up turning out that way.

Couldn't say for certain what any of them are.

23. Where I've lived before.

Kitchener, Teeswater, Crystal Beach, Waterloo.

24. I'll love you if...

Jeezus, what is with these questions today?

Don't ask me what makes me love you. I pick the wrong people to give that to.

25. What are my future plans.

Go through that program again, pinpoint exactly what type of course I want to get into, get into that. After that, find work and move up in my career. Figure out who I am and embrace it. Move into a house, maybe move from the city. Finding a spouse would be nice but it's not included.

26. An internal conflict I have with myself.

I want to lose weight but I love food. Every time.

27. What I'm doing tomorrow.

Saturday. I actually have no idea. Ma'am is with her dad until Sunday. I imagine either laundry or going to my mom's or something. Who knows.

28. What I want to be when I get older.

Ideally, a police officer. I'll have to see when I get there.

Holiday Questionnaire, round 3.

15. A description of the person I dislike the most.

Hmm. I suppose there's one person that I actually dislike more than all the others. He's controlling, manipulative, abusive. He doesn't care about you; thoughts, feelings, opinions, etc. He believes he's better than everyone else. He places his faults, stresses and shortcomings on others so that nothing is his problem or fault. If you don't agree with what he says or thinks, you're wrong. If you don't do what he wants, no matter what it is, you're to blame for the stuff that happens afterward. He takes no responsibility for consequences of his own actions. His reality differs greatly from actual reality. If you speak to, or treat, him the way he does to other people, you're not respecting him as a person. I could go on.

16. My favourite songs right now.

I haven't been listening to music much lately. My favourites vary week by week.

17. How my last kiss went down.

If I'm recalling it correctly, it was pretty short. Just a "goodbye, see you later" type of kiss.

18. What I find attractive in the opposite sex.

I like taller guys. A nice smile, nice eyes. I like guys that are educated and that read more than sports magazines. I like a guy that has an idea of how he wants his life to go, basically goals. I like a nice set of arms, a cute butt. I like someone that's honest, creative, funny. Someone that knows how to joke around and be silly. If he has kids, that he spends time with them and enjoys doing so. Someone that is respectful and kind to other people.

19. All of the pets I've ever had.

Goodness, that's a long list.

My step-dad had a beagle named Buddy. He either ran away and no one could find him, or was given away. We also lived on a farm at that point and there were various barn cats that would follow me around.

After we moved we got Crackers. She's still alive, 16 years later. She had two kittens, whom had 6 of their own kittens. So at one point we had 9 cats in a small 3 bedroom apartment.

After moving to the city there were 2 or 3 different cats. Since living on my own I've owned 5 different cats. The first one got out and ran off. The second jumped out my second story window and we never found him. The 3rd and 4th I gave away while I was pregnant with Bub. The 5th I gave away because he was mean to the kids.

20. Favourite flavour of ice cream.

Tough one. I don't really have a favourite.

21. The one place I want to be right now.

Some place warm, without the day to day stresses I have here.

Holiday Questionnaire, round 2.

8. My biggest turn offs.

Hm. Dishonesty. Flakiness. Being fickle. Not being educated. Not being clean. Aggressive behaviours. Control issues. Just to name a few.

9. A description of my best friend.

I'm just going to pick one from #6, as I'd be here all night describing them all. Rain, in a nut shell.

She is very giving and selfless. She doesn't see how amazing she is. She's very smart, funny, beautiful. She always listens to me no matter what I have to say, usually always giving insight or advice, as the situation calls. She goes along with a lot of my silliness even when it doesn't make sense. She's a fantastic, wonderful, lovely, exceptional woman. Can't imagine my life without her in it.

Don't know if that describes her per se, but that's what you get.

10. My favourite animal.

I don't really have a specific one. I like a lot of the safari animals; the big cats, giraffes, hippos, rhinos, elephants. I like a few of the arctic animals; wolves, polar bears, penguins. Certain breeds of dogs and specific cats (not by breed, but by cat).

11. Someone I miss.

This one is kind of tough.

There are people I don't see often but talk to on a weekly basis. I wouldn't say I exactly miss them, but I'd like to see them more often.

There are people that I used to talk to that I miss, but wouldn't necessarily want to talk to again. I miss them as they were, but maybe not as they are now.

12. The reason behind my last break up.

I suppose that depends on how you define "break up".

Back in the summer I hung out with a guy for like a week straight. He slept over at my house and such. I didn't want to put a title on whatever we were doing, so we were "official, but not official". Things ended with him because he stole money from me and was cheating on his pregnant girlfriend (whom I didn't know about at the beginning).

If we're talking "official", then that was back in September '11. We dated for a month. It ended because he, to put it simply, was just an asshole.

13. What I did yesterday.

Yesterday was actually a pretty good day for me. I woke up to boobs that weren't engorged and sore (I recently weaned Bub). Ma'am wasn't a total brat (as she was the day before that). We went to my mom's and had supper. Came home and got Bub to bed, opened the Christmas Eve boxes, watched a Christmas movie. Ma'am helped me put the presents out under the tree. I think I got some writing done in there somewhere. Yep, good day.

14. What my greatest achievements are.

Excluding being a good mom, cause that's an obvious one, I would say completing my high school despite having a young child, and not going for the GED. It took a lot of time and energy but I can proudly display my diploma, which is framed on my wall.

Holiday Questionnaire, round 1.

Since I haven't been on the blog lately I thought I'd do another round of questions. I have a year long list for 2014 so this one will be condensed into just the remaining week and some of the year.

1. Sexual orientation.

I'm going to say straight with a little wrinkle of bi-curious in there. I find females attractive and have kissed a few, but don't think I'd want to go any further than that.

2. Something I'm really bad at.

Managing things. Time, money, everything else.

3. The person's whose arms I'd like to be in.

You don't get a name, but there is someone I'd like to be with right now.

4. My best first date.

I haven't been on many. I think the most interesting one was with a guy that worked in a restaurant. He was on the clock and was making me dinner when the transformer blew in the kitchen. All I see is a bright flash of light and then hear "What the fuck was that?!" We got to hang out for a bit cause he couldn't cook any food.

5. A description of my self esteem.

Oh, boy. I don't know. I'm pretty good with who I am and where I am. There are things I'd like to change of course, but they're pretty minor.

6. Who my best friends are.

Rain. No brainer. We've only known each other a few years but we're pretty much soul mates.
Lisa. I've known her the longest, some 20 years now.
Brenna. Known her the shortest but we've developed into good friends.
Jenn. We don't talk much any more but she was there for me through a lot.

7. My favourite book.

I honestly don't think I have a favourite. I like certain authors, but book? Can't pick.